Wednesday, 8 March 2017
Ahalya - A Myth revisited
Saturday, 10 December 2016
My first day as a Teacher
How do you feel if something very pleasant happens to you which you never expected! We call it ‘surprise’. Our expression will be ‘Dream comes true’. But even to live dreams in reality is not much easy as to imagine it. How you feel doing anything first time in your life. We named this inexperienced feelings as ‘excitement’. Something like this happened to me on the day of my first lecture.
I have prepared my mind before entering in the classroom. (That’s what I was saying to my mind that, ‘don’t worry I have prepared well!’)
Before class begins, I was ending my preparation of how to begin my class. (Well, that was not my only preparation, I weared heels and made myself to be seemed as teacher. It is another matter that I hardly succeed in getting that look!) I entered in the classroom, I was standing in front of students of 2nd year MA , elder than 20, highly intelligent, mature and learned scholars. (And I merely two years elder than them.) I forgot the way to console my heart ‘All is Well’. Around 50 eyes were gazing me, marking and measuring my every movements. I was feeling as I was doubtful person standing in a court surrounded by lawyers and judges who will judge me. The scene, for me, was like tiny manikin standing in front of giants, without any idea of how to escape or how to perform! They were waiting for my words and I was searching for words. I went on teaching in my way (and they went on learning in their own way). Sometimes I made errors and suddenly I became conscious of those errors and I started editing errors. (This way I was doing another error of editing errors.) I am very sure on my assumption that students faced confusion on my editing.
Even if I was looking at every student, I couldn’t prefer their eye contact. I was fearful of loosing my fluency in thinking. Actually I am confuse for what I feared most. They may read my fearful eyes or I may come to know what’s on their minds. Sometimes the situation became worse for me. As I was not using mother tongue, I paused for a long time when I could not find words from the air ( from where I usually find).
I felt nostalgic While teaching at the same place where I have enjoyed my student life only two years before. First time in my life I felt ‘Karma returns’ and ‘you can get a chance to get revenge’! I could feel the moment when I was sitting on one of the benches of the same place with my friends. Teacher was trying to teach us with all his/her concentration and we were listening all our concentration on our fun plans! (I am very sure that if I was a bit sincere in my concentration than I might have written already a book on ‘How to tolerate boring lectures’* and it can be useful to my students.) Our minds remained busy in enjoying the lecture with not studying, passing comments, thinking about party plans, criticising teaching methods and eyes on magnetic clock.
How can you forget if everything is happening again in front of your eyes. I didn’t know how much have I avenged students (in comparison of my situation as a student) but I was lucky that I didn’t have to face any kind of mischief. And I have not learned any ‘mischief managed’ charm yet.
From that day, I started opposing strongly the saying ‘students are afraid of teacher’ rather I believe teacher is afraid of students.
Exhaustion, nervousness and constant concentration on hiding these feelings are my feelings of excitement this time, if you call it.
Well, except humour, I have enjoyed my first lecture because of students’ sincerity and friendly nature towards me. Lucky to have such a nice experience.
*If any book like this published than the content should be...
1 Know your teacher- strength and weaknesses (be sure you are punished or not)
2 How to talk with your friends without getting noticed
3 How to pass time without mobile phones
4 How to make your mind and ear work separately.
5.............
6.............
With a preface ‘How to hide this book from teachers’.
Thursday, 11 February 2016
સવાર અને અખબાર
સવાર અને અખબાર
આંગણામાં ઈચ્છા વગરનું મોર્નિંગ વોક થઇ રહ્યું હોય, ઇંડિયા પાકિસ્તાનની બોર્ડર પરનાં જવાનને શરમાવે તેવી દરવાજા પર ચોકી થઇ રહી હોય. આંખો ચકળ-વકળ ફરતી હોય અને ભૂલથીએ કોઈ બોલાવે તો જાણે સાતે વાદળ તૂટી પડશે એવી ગર્જના થાય. આવી પરિસ્થિતિ બસ એક જ સ્થિતિમાં હોય - જો સવારે અખબાર ન આવ્યું હોય. સવાર અને અખબાર વચ્ચે એવો અતુટ સંબંધ છે કે રોમિયો જુલિએટ જેવી અમર જોડીઓ ને પણ ભુલાવે. સવાર પડે એટલે અખબાર જોઈએ જ. પાંચ મિનીટ છાપું મોડું આવ્યું હોય તો દિવસની શરૂઆત જ ખરાબ થાય. એ પાંચ મિનીટની પીડા, વિરહની વેદનામાં ડૂબેલા દેવદાસની દશા કરતાંય વિકટ બની જાય. અને એમાંયે પાડોશીનાં ઘરે આવી ગયું હોય તો તો જાણે એને એક કરોડ રૂપિયાની લોટરી લાગી હોય એમ આપણી નજર સતત ત્યાંજ ચીપકેલી રહે, બે -ત્રણવાર તો એના ઘરેથી ચુપકેથી છાપું લઇ આવવાનો વિચાર પણ થઇ આવે, પણ ક્યાંક બીજે દિવસે એ જ અખબારમાં આપણાં જ ન્યુઝ 'બે પાડોશી વચ્ચે ઝઘડો- મારામારી' ના શીર્ષક નીચે આવી જવાની બીકે એ વિચારને તિલાંજલી અપાવી પડે.

સવારના છાપાં વગર જાણે દિવસ આગળ વધશે જ નહિ. અમુક લોકોની તો છાપું વાંચ્યા વગર દિનચર્યા જ અટકી પડે. શરીરનું રુધિરાભિસરણતંત્ર અટકી ગયું હોય અને સવારની સ્ફૂર્તિ અને તાજગી હણાય ગઈ હોય તેમ આખો દિવસ, ખાનગી સંસ્થામાં કામ કરતા કારકુનનાં થાકેલા, બેહાલ શરીર જેવું મોઢું લઈને છાપાં રસિયાઓ ફરતા હોય.
અમુક સ્માર્ટ લોકો તો છાપું વાંચવાની સાથે બીજા કામ પણ કરે. કોઈ મોઢામાં બ્રશ નાખીને છાપું વાંચે. તો કોઈને બાથરૂમમાં છાપું સાથે લઇ જવાની આદત હોય. ને કોઈ વળી ચા પીતાં પીતાં છાપું વાંચતું હોય. એવું સમય બચાવવા કરતા હોય તેવું લાગે પણ ખરેખર તો છાપું તેમની બીજી ક્રિયાઓ ને સરળ બનાવી દેતું હોય છે અને એ અન્ય ક્રિયા કરવા માટે પ્રેરણા સ્ત્રોત બની રહે છે. એટલે જ જ્યારે હાથમાં છાપું આવે ત્યારે જ ચા નો કપ હાથમાં લેવાનો, ત્યાં સુધી રાહ જોવાની...
અખબાર પછી રેડિયો ને ટીવી જેવા સાધનો આવ્યા પણ અખબાર પ્રેમીઓનો પ્રેમ જરાય ઓછો થયો નથી. અમુક લોકોને તો સવાર જ છાપું આવે ત્યારે પડે. પથારીમાંથી બંધ આંખો ખોલવાના ચાલુ પ્રયત્ને એ છાપાં સુધી આંખો ચોળતા ચોળતા રસ્તાની પાંચ-છ વસ્તુઓ ને ઠેબે લે, પણ છાપું હાથમાં આવતાની સાથે આંખો ફટાકથી પહોળી થઇ જાય ને જ્યાં સુધી પેલ્લે થી છેલ્લે સુધી, મુખ્ય સમાચારથી જાહેરાત સુધી, જીણામાં જીણી ખબર વાંચી ન લે ત્યાં સુધી એની સવાર પડે જ નહિ.
વળી રજાના દિવસે તો કઠણાઈ, જાણે સવાર જ દિવસમાંથી કપાઈ ગઈ હોય. મન મનાવવા કોઈ વાસી છાપું જુએ, ને બે મિનીટ પછી ફેંકી દે, આ પ્રક્રિયા અડધો કલાક ચાલે ને જેમ તેમ સવાર નીકળી જાય (પણ તેની અસર વાતાવરણમાં આખો દિવસ વરતાય.)
એક દિવસ છાપું ન વાંચવાથી જાણે આપણે દુનિયાની તમામ ખબરોથી વંચિત રહી ગયા હોઈએ એવું લાગે. ગઈ કાલના એક દિવસમાં, પાડોશીનાં ઘરમાં આતંકવાદી આવી ગયા હશે! કોઈ મીનીસ્ટરનું નવું કોભાંડ બહાર આવ્યું હશે? કોઈ નેતા એ પ્રમાણિકતાના શપથ લીધા હશે કે પછી આપણી સોસાયટીમાં ગઈકાલે અમિતાભ બચ્ચન આવ્યો હશે?!!! પાકિસ્તાને ભારત સાથે શાંતિવાર્તા કરી હશે! જાણે કોઈએ નિર્જન ટાપુ પર એકલા મોકલી દીધા હોય એવી લાગણી થઇ આવે. બીજા દિવસે સવારે છાપાંનાં દર્શન ન થવાથી તહેવારોની મજા જ ઉતારી જાય.
શાળામાં આપણે 'શિયાળાની સવાર' નિબંધ લખેલો. પણ એની કરતા 'સવાર વિથ અખબાર' એવો નિબંધ લખવા આપ્યો હોત તો એ વધારે રોમાંચક અને રસપ્રદ બન્યો હોત. કોલેજમાં કરુણરસ સમજાવવા 'અભિજ્ઞાન શાકુંતલ' નાં રોતાં ઝાડ-પાન, ફૂલનાં વર્ણનો કલાકો સુધી ભણાવતા, પણ એના બદલે, 'સવાર- વિના અખબાર'ની કલ્પના કરવાનું કહ્યું હોત તો બિચારા છાપાં રસિયાઓ ત્યાં જ રડી પડત!
ઘણીવાર એવો વિચાર પણ આવે કે પોલીસવાળાની જેમ અખબારવાળાઓને પણ ૨૪ કલાકની, એકે રજા વગરની ફરજીયાત નોકરી હોવી જોઈએ! અને છાપાંપ્રેમીઓએ હંમેશા એવી પ્રાર્થના કરવી જોઈએ કે, છાપાંનાં તંત્રીઓ અને એની સાથે જોડાયેલા કર્મચારીઓની ક્યારેય હડતાલ ન પડે!
Tuesday, 29 September 2015
Indrani’s Gossip
Never think even for a moment, while reading the title that, this is again about Shina Vora murderer Indrani and her chewed case. Let split it. Here Indrani means Indra’s wife who is also known as Shachi, whom we forgot. Indra is one of the deities and famous for his intelligent tricks and traps in Hindu mythology. As his wife what Indrani may feel and think about Indra and his mischief?!! Here is an attempt to present it.
“Oh My God!! What I am saying!?!! He is also one of the Gods. Whom should I tell my sorrows? Oh My…..O Shit.” Indrani sighed.
“I am really tired with his mischief. How many times I have to ignore his deeds??! You know Parvatiji, sometimes he remains so busy in watching Apsaras' dances that when he comes to me, he forgets my name and considers me one of the Apsaras. I feel shame and guilt even to talk with Urvashi and Menka. What if I do the same! And remain busy with Gandharvas and their music performances?!?!! He didn’t think about our children, what they will think about their father!! I can’t face them because of his dirty tricks.”
“he is really very careless about ‘Indrasan’. Have you heard story of ‘rabbit and tortoise’s race’?? he is doing same like rabbit. He never gives attention to important issues and ‘Indrasan’, and when someone starts penance, he starts using tricks with him. I suppose his tricks may have inspired Ekta Kapoor to use it in her serials nowadays!!! He is spoiling ‘Pruthvilok’ with doing such deeds. All the deities say, it is ‘Kalyug’ on ‘Pruthvi’, but if their God is like him what can we expect from them.
“Do you remember what he did with Ahalya?! Oh My…. Oh … I couldn’t show my face to anyone. I was feeling so shame. It is very difficult to face Brahmaji then. But he is as always, even Brahmaji also didn’t scold him. That’s why he is not fearful and feels freedom to be mischievous with others.”
“Laxmiji, perhaps you can understand my feelings. As a wife what I felt, you can understand, how you felt when God Vishnu has tricked with Vrinda (Tulsi). Still, there is a reason of killing that demon behind his act. But as a wife we have our own feelings.”
“Yes, Shachi, I can understand you. But they are Gods, deities. They are well wishers. Whatever they act, it is for the sake of goodness. And after all we are also deities; our duty is to follow them.”
“Shhshhsh……speak silently, Naradji will listen us, you know, he is always roaming here and there….”
“Yes, Parvatiji, perhaps you are right. But what disgusting there tricks are!! You know what they have done with me?! Arjuna is Indra’s son. Obviously but not mine! And they insisted me to take birth as Draupadi, who is going to marry Arjuna! It means I become wife of my husband’s son! Oh My God! Oh My…I cannot think! Have you seen any relation like this? Even today’s boring serials have better relations than mine, though they marry many times!
“I have tried to change his habits, Parvatiji, I explained him, look at lord Shiva, have you ever seen him watching Apsaras’ dances?! Do you know what he said?! He argued, ‘have you seen Krishna’s Ras-leela?’!! What should I say further Laxmiji??!”
“I imagine sometime, if I file case on him in court, my file will be very strong… but this can be true only at ‘Pruthvi’. This is only to be dreamt. And…. Foolish humans dream to come in ‘Swarg’!!!!”
I know today also he remains busy with Apsaras. Oh! He will never change. Do you think what will my curse if I get a chance? I will………”
“Shshshhh……Be silent, he is coming……”
Friday, 18 September 2015
HORN.....PLEASE
Shakespeare has said, “What is there in name!”, if he is alive today, he will add, “What is there in name, everything is in status!!” in the world of social media, status, taglines matter more. There are many observations and studies are done on social media status, taglines and our personality. And this is about moving taglines…
While journeying, we observe many things, natural beauty, trees, bumps on the road, sitting cows on a way and observation of other vehicles. How other car is driven, which is model, what is numbers in number plate and the most important from which we cannot stop our eyes to watch, what is written behind vehicles.
It’s very interesting to study what people choose to write behind their vehicles. I have done some interesting observations as following.
Generally, people choose some status or tagline, which they want to show others, who and how they are (it doesn’t mean, they are like what the tagline suggests). With observing these moving vehicle taglines, we can have an idea of social values. People used to show the things which are considered as valuable and moral in society.
For example, you can see, on the most of vehicles, there is name of some God in which they (owner) believe. It doesn’t mean that the owner is very religious or moral but to show that, they are good people they write God’s name behind their vehicles. Because to be religious is considered as good or valuable in society and now it becomes trend.
With observing traffic taglines of vehicles, we can get an idea of who is in power position. In Indian cast system, if a particular cast/community have more power, the people of the same group wants to show their identity. So, on their vehicles, surname or some cast identity is shown, because it will help them sometimes in society.
You can see there are many vehicles, where ‘Rajput’ or symbol of lions is drawn. It shows their identity and feeling of superiority.
The most interesting thing you can observe is, taglines are different with reference to their economical class. You can find some similarities in truck taglines and how it is different from car tags.
For example, you can rarely find expensive car on which God’s name is written. Rich people don’t write anything. Their expensive vehicles become tag for them as they (vehicles) are showing their richness.
In category, other people, below in richness, will write their names on their vehicles. It shows that for them, they are in center.
Truck taglines are the most interesting. You can find one common sentence behind most of the trucks. Which is shown in the image. It means they believe in some superstitions. As they are poor their mentality differs. Some trucks have taglines like “Mera Bharat Mahan” it means, for poor people patriotism or love for country is value or moral. But we can rarely find this tagline on cars or other vehicles, because for upper class people, patriotism is not value.
In summing up, I can say, our taglines can suggest many things, like,
About our personality, do we want to show our identity and feel proud or superior or not!
People, who write God’s name, have much concern about social values and trends; they want to show themselves as simple and common.
People who write their name on vehicles love themselves, they keep themselves in center.
Mentality differs from upper class to lower. Poor people, generally, believe more in superstitions than upper class people (God’s name on car and truck taglines).
Richness has its own fashion, tags with not having any taglines on their expensive vehicles.
There are many people, who don’t write/show anything on their vehicles. Some ideas we can guess are, they don’t want to show their identity or they believe in equality. Identity does not matter more for them.
These are my observations and assumptions, there are exceptions and it may be wrong. It will be very interesting if you share your observations and statements about it...
Sunday, 13 September 2015
Dear Mr. Wordsworth...
Dear Mr. Wordsworth…
Dear Mr. Wordsworth
Critical interpretation of Wordsworth’s definition of
poetry
If you ask a question to any
student of literature, “what is poetry?” you will get very simple and common
answer – “Poetry is the spontaneous overflow of powerful feelings.”
Some exceptions will add “…feelings recollected in tranquillity”.
Thanks to Mr. William Wordsworth, in easy words he has given this definition of
poetry. Perhaps that’s why every literary student likes him much as he has made
very complicated things (that is poetry and its definition both) simple and
easy to understand.
Wordsworth’s present definition of poetry is appreciated as well as criticized
much. Wordsworth’s simplification must be appreciated. But here I want to
criticize his definition. According to me, there is a very important element
missing in Wordsworth’s definition of poetry.
The important element is ‘idea’. Every art is connected with an
idea. Without an idea, the creation of art is not possible. As a genre of
literature, poetry is also an art and for that idea is the most important thing
that is missing in Wordsworth’s well-known definition.
The idea is the mother of art. The artist/poet always has an idea which he/she
wants to present or express through a particular medium. Without an idea, the
creation of art is not possible. Let me clear one thing that, inspiration and
idea are different things…
If we analyze Wordsworth’s definition, he talks about “powerful feelings” the
very first thing is, powerful feelings and artistic ideas are very different
from each other. Feelings can never create artistic work. Having feelings and
having an idea to represent through the medium is very different. This can be
explained in a better way with example.
For example, I have feelings of happiness, exclamatory when I saw the sky, and
I started speaking…
“A blowing breeze and starry sky with moonlight,
How can I escape from this beauty of Night?”
It’s only feelings, not an idea represented. If there is a poet instead of me,
he/she will write with meters, rhymes and beautiful words, but we can call it
description than poetry!!
Having meters, rhymes or specific structures are not enough to make those
expressions of feelings as poetry. Perhaps this is the central difference
between rhyming lines and poetry. Even if the line has not meter or rhymes, it
can be considered as poetry, only because it has an idea. It can be interpreted
in many ways. That’s why Shakespeare’s dramatic lines have worth of poetry, Ghalib’s
short shayri is considered as poetry. They are famous for their ideas. The
following lines from Shakespeare’s sonnet will explain the value of the idea in
a better way.
“All days are nights to see
till I see thee,
And nights bright days when dreams do show thee me.”
Meters, rhyme, use of words are important for beauty, especially in poetry,
because poetry is meant to be beautiful and powerful with words. But the
presentation of an idea or idea behind poetry is compulsory. The beauty of
art/poetry lies in ideas and interpretations not in rhymes or even feelings. The
idea of poetry raises feelings in the reader. The rhyming lines are not capable to
do that.
Let me clear another thing, to reach to the poet’s idea through the medium of
art is never possible for readers. Readers can only interpret as they want and
form the idea/ ideas.
If we take Wordsworth’s example, his definition is connected with his famous
poem ‘Daffodils’. Now my first question to him is, without an idea,
has he expressed feelings only in the poem??!! (If it is so…I need a critique
to understand!) There was an idea in his mind which he has presented in the
poem. (This is my interpretation because I cannot reach to Wordsworth’s mind.)
It also can be possible that Wordsworth has written this poem to
explain his definition of poetry because definition and poem are connected many
times by critics. So, the idea is to explain the concept with an
example (using past tense at the beginning, present tense at the end… in the
poem).
Moving back to Wordsworth’s definition, he has added feelings recollected in
tranquillity. The first problematic matter is, how can powerful
feelings be recollected? And if we are recollecting past feelings it will not
remain ‘Powerful feelings’. I also want to add T. S. Eliot’s critical
viewpoint that, if we are recollecting than it will not remain spontaneous
overflow. The words ‘Spontaneous overflow’ and ‘Tranquillity’ are
juxtaposing each other.
The second problematic matter is, if we are recollecting some emotions which we
have felt in the past, then there will be the reason behind it. Which
and why some particular feelings are recollected is a matter of question.
(As Rushdie said, ‘Selection is political’.) There must be an idea or a thought
which leads to some particular feelings. It is in the poet’s hand to be partial
with some emotions or feelings. So, what I want to say is, when the poet is
recollecting his past feelings, there should be an idea in his mind in
recollection, selection of feelings, and even in presenting these
feelings. Without an idea, the poet can never recollect any powerful
feelings, and never transfer them into poetry; they will be forgotten as
feelings only.
So, Wordsworth’s definition is well- written but not perfect. According to me,
“Poetry is an idea presented through the medium of words, which are organized
and beautified with a particular structure, meter, rhymes and can create
musical effects.”
Feelings expressed in words can be called description, if it has the beauty of
words, it can touch the heart. But an idea expressed through words can touch
the heart and also make us think. It is a fact that we don’t read
literature/poems only to get pleasure, but our pleasure is connected with
ideas, interpretations that we are getting from it. Even for some time, it
makes us think something. Poetry is not only the beauty of words or
emotions; it is the beauty of ideas that are emotional.


